Today was the day of all Psych outs!
I've been inserting infusion sets for almost 4 years now and I'm just now to the point where I can push the button without any hesitation. For every painful insertion, it takes me another 4-5 months to get myself the point to just "do it." You'd think I would just get used to it. Now that I'm there with the infusion set, the CGM sensor has taken its place.
If you've read about my frustrations with the CGM, I've decided to try inserting the sensor in a new location with a suggestion from Scully at Canadian D-gal. Thanks Scully for the advice, but I was completely terrified to try inserting the sensor anywhere but my abdomen. So, today was the day I decided to try the thigh- she said she had better results from the thigh- so I figured I would have nothing to lose.
So, I'm standing with all my crap out ready to just stick it in the thigh- no biggie right? But then, I started psyching myself out. My Hubby was laying on the bed trying to be all supportive as I began asking him these questions...my psych out begins!
"Do you think this is going to hurt?"- as if he as ANY idea- I was just looking for him to say "of course not!"
"What's the worst thing that could happen...it could hurt right?"
"I can deal with pain for 2 minutes- afterall, in an hour I'll forget about it."
All these things I kept staying as I stood there with the sen-serter handy on the thigh- but I couldn't pull the trigger.
Psych out continues...
"Do you think this is the right spot? This is considered my thigh right?"
"Are you sure this is my thigh?"
"Can you count to 3 for me...then I'll push the button...actually..can you push the button for me?"
"There are people in the world who go through a lot more pain than this right?" (as I thought about my co-worker who just donated a kidney)
"Just do it, just do it, just do it (as I'm breathing like I'm in labor)."
The Hubby was really really supportive- but I continued to psych myself out- to the point where I put the sen-serter down several times.
But then..I took a deep breath...AND
IT DIDN'T HURT!
So I say..."that was NOT bad at all!"
So far, I'm really really happy with the sensor on the thigh, so hopefully I'll get better results...and if I don't...oh well! Thanks Skully for the suggestion- I now know that it doesn't really hurt that bad, so hopefully next time it will take me less than 20 minutes to push the button!
Isn't it ridiculous what we say to ourselves? Anybody else do this or say crazy things?