Life can be cruel sometimes...and I'm wondering if God is Faking me out.....
My period was supposed to start yesterday- since the beginning of my period as a 12 year old- my period has ALWAYS been normal and regular (with the exception of Pre-Diabetes diagnosis).
Every 26 days...my period is like clock work....however....yesterday...it did NOT come at all. Part of me wanted to be excited...so I took a test...a big fat NEGATIVE. Disappointment....disappointment...disappointment....
Last night I went to bed with cramps- woke up with cramps in the middle of the night...not feeling so great. This morning...I felt fine...but I still have no signs of normal period..nor have I had any cramps today....
This is such a mean trick if my period is going to come...what would you do...take another test??? Wait it out a few days??
Part of me is nervous to take another test for fear of another BIG FAT NEGATIVE!
Maybe I'll get what I wanted for my birthday after all....maybe???
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Why do doctors make you feel stupid? My story...
So, I'm going to share my story- and you can either laugh at me (to yourself) or let me know if this has happened to you.
So...the last 4-5 days, I've been experiencing some symptoms of pregnancy. The last 4 mornings, I've woken up very nauseus and then it would continue on and off throughout the day. In addition, my boobs hurt soooo bad that I don't even have to touch them to feel the discomfort. My first reaction was of course- "I'm pregnant." Then...the symptoms kept on coming, "omg- is that my vision blurring?" and "I have hearburn...do I really?" Was I psyching myself out or is this the real thing? The emotions are way out of control!
I tell the Hubby how I'm feeling and he starts asking a bunch of questions of concern...ALL DAY! I love his concern about my health and everything...but every sound or noise I made, he's asking "what's wrong?" We run into the store and buy 3 pregnancy tests, but of course...I'm not expecting my period until May 10, and it's only May 3- too early to take a test.
I'm not a very patient person sometimes when it comes to knowing things, so I called this morning and made an appointment with my regular physician to get a blood pregnancy test. I was feeling better, and I'm pretty sure the slight rise in my blood sugar was because of the stress of worrying.
I walk into the appointment, the nurse didn't say a word which was completely disappointing and tells me to pee in a cup down the hall. I wanted to scream- "Lady- it's too early to do a urine test or I would have done it at home!" At any rate, I peed in the cup and waited for nearly 30 minutes back in the room. My regular physician was out, so I settled for Dr. Make you Feel like and Idiot. She asked me about my symptoms and I shot down the list and then tells me that my urine test was negative (NO SHIT- like I said before- it's too early!) I follow along and she tells me they are going to do a blood test (this is what I was waiting for)and crappy No Talk nurse walks back in the room- still not talking as if we had some huge fight.
Now- I've never been pregnant before- so I'm not sure how I will feel or what to expect or anything. So I ask the Replacement doctor- "Is it common for women to experience symptoms of pregnancy this early on?" She looked at me with her smirky smile and promptly reponded, "No...not at all!" Talk about making me feel so stupid! Is the internet all wrong? I mean- I've been reading all kinds of stories about women feeling pregnant before their period starts, but at any rate, she made me feel really dumb and I wished I had waited a couple more days to just take the urine test at home on my own.
Blood was drawn and Replacement Doc is of course doing "other tests" because my symptoms were so unusual and now I have to wait until tomorrow to get the results. I think my Hubby was relieved that I didn't have to tell him any big news over the phone.
So...I'm waiting as patiently as I can until tomorrow, praying that I'm right in my instincts so I can tell Replacement Doc that I'm not stupid and women can feel signs of pregnancy early on. But if she's right and I'm not pregnant- I'll probably be sad and feel even more stupid- but at any rate I'll have fun trying again next month :)
Has any other T1 women experienced early signs of pregnancy before a missed period??
So...the last 4-5 days, I've been experiencing some symptoms of pregnancy. The last 4 mornings, I've woken up very nauseus and then it would continue on and off throughout the day. In addition, my boobs hurt soooo bad that I don't even have to touch them to feel the discomfort. My first reaction was of course- "I'm pregnant." Then...the symptoms kept on coming, "omg- is that my vision blurring?" and "I have hearburn...do I really?" Was I psyching myself out or is this the real thing? The emotions are way out of control!
I tell the Hubby how I'm feeling and he starts asking a bunch of questions of concern...ALL DAY! I love his concern about my health and everything...but every sound or noise I made, he's asking "what's wrong?" We run into the store and buy 3 pregnancy tests, but of course...I'm not expecting my period until May 10, and it's only May 3- too early to take a test.
I'm not a very patient person sometimes when it comes to knowing things, so I called this morning and made an appointment with my regular physician to get a blood pregnancy test. I was feeling better, and I'm pretty sure the slight rise in my blood sugar was because of the stress of worrying.
I walk into the appointment, the nurse didn't say a word which was completely disappointing and tells me to pee in a cup down the hall. I wanted to scream- "Lady- it's too early to do a urine test or I would have done it at home!" At any rate, I peed in the cup and waited for nearly 30 minutes back in the room. My regular physician was out, so I settled for Dr. Make you Feel like and Idiot. She asked me about my symptoms and I shot down the list and then tells me that my urine test was negative (NO SHIT- like I said before- it's too early!) I follow along and she tells me they are going to do a blood test (this is what I was waiting for)and crappy No Talk nurse walks back in the room- still not talking as if we had some huge fight.
Now- I've never been pregnant before- so I'm not sure how I will feel or what to expect or anything. So I ask the Replacement doctor- "Is it common for women to experience symptoms of pregnancy this early on?" She looked at me with her smirky smile and promptly reponded, "No...not at all!" Talk about making me feel so stupid! Is the internet all wrong? I mean- I've been reading all kinds of stories about women feeling pregnant before their period starts, but at any rate, she made me feel really dumb and I wished I had waited a couple more days to just take the urine test at home on my own.
Blood was drawn and Replacement Doc is of course doing "other tests" because my symptoms were so unusual and now I have to wait until tomorrow to get the results. I think my Hubby was relieved that I didn't have to tell him any big news over the phone.
So...I'm waiting as patiently as I can until tomorrow, praying that I'm right in my instincts so I can tell Replacement Doc that I'm not stupid and women can feel signs of pregnancy early on. But if she's right and I'm not pregnant- I'll probably be sad and feel even more stupid- but at any rate I'll have fun trying again next month :)
Has any other T1 women experienced early signs of pregnancy before a missed period??
Sunday, May 2, 2010
The flood gates are open!
It's such a freeing feeling to be able to write about whatever I feel and what I'm thinking. I started a blog a couple weeks ago (Pseudo Confessions of a Diabetic), but found that it was not quite working out for me since I had shared with some friends and family. If you happen to jump over to that old...but very real blog, please be discrete about the existence of this even more truthful blog! Thank you all in advance for this support. I know in this new blog- I will be of more help to all of you as readers in my honesty and intentions for my life and whatever else I write here.
My journey into blogging began as my hubby and I started discussing the possibility of starting a family. As a 25 year old Type 1 Diabetic, I have a lot of questions and an impossible amount of concerns as we start this venture. At any rate, I decided I wanted to read a book but found virtually zero books relating to Type 1 Diabetes and pregnancy. There was a small book published by ADA (American Diabetes Association) in I belive 2000- so I reserved it at the library. I also began searching the internet and came across Cheryl Alkon and her blog Managing the Sweetness Within. Through wonderful conversation and support- I also ordered Cheryl's book Balancing Pregnancy with Pre-Existing Diabetes: Healthy Mom, Healthy Baby.
The book from the libary came in...I rushed to pick it up....read in one sitting- COMPLETE disappointment. It was extremely outdated- so I anxiously awaited the Cheryl Alkon book to arrive in the mail :) It's here...and I'm reading it and loving it! Finally- a wonderful starting point for so many questions...and I feel that I'm really getting some good answers!
My journey into blogging began as my hubby and I started discussing the possibility of starting a family. As a 25 year old Type 1 Diabetic, I have a lot of questions and an impossible amount of concerns as we start this venture. At any rate, I decided I wanted to read a book but found virtually zero books relating to Type 1 Diabetes and pregnancy. There was a small book published by ADA (American Diabetes Association) in I belive 2000- so I reserved it at the library. I also began searching the internet and came across Cheryl Alkon and her blog Managing the Sweetness Within. Through wonderful conversation and support- I also ordered Cheryl's book Balancing Pregnancy with Pre-Existing Diabetes: Healthy Mom, Healthy Baby.
The book from the libary came in...I rushed to pick it up....read in one sitting- COMPLETE disappointment. It was extremely outdated- so I anxiously awaited the Cheryl Alkon book to arrive in the mail :) It's here...and I'm reading it and loving it! Finally- a wonderful starting point for so many questions...and I feel that I'm really getting some good answers!
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