It's amazing to me how numbers impact my life (or my mood) at any second of the day.
Within the past few months, I've seen 41 and 403 and many numbers inbetween. For the past 5 years of my life, this has been the expectation, the norm for me as I constantly attempt to grasp this little life with Diabetes.
I finally feel some control in my life, some better grasp on reality. Maybe it's the idea of bringing a child into this world. I always told myself, "If I can't take care of myself, how am I going to take care of a baby?" That little split second thought always balances my never ending craving to be "normal." The reality is, I AM normal. I AM human, alive and healthy. It's about time I stop focusing on being different and focus on what I want to achieve as a normal person. I want to be healthy and happy. Yes, healthiness for me comes with effort, but what's wrong with a little effort? Kids take effort and willingness to be tired, but that's something I'm not giving up- so again-what's wrong with a little effort?
The past few months as we discuss starting a family- I finally feel that I have a grasp on what I need to do to stay and be healthy. The results are showing. My blood sugars are excellent and well within range most of the time. HOW MOTIVATING! For the first time in my life, I feel confident walking into the endo and confident that my A1c has dropped from the last time. No more surprises, no more denial of what I need to do. This is me adjusting to a new norm and it feels fabulous!
Hi!!! Just read your comment on my blog. If you still want to participate in Diabetes Blog Week, just let me know and I'd be happy to add you. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Karen! I would love to be added! I sent you an email :)
ReplyDeleteOne of the benefits of being a mommy in the making. Even after your baby's here, you'll still find that you're more in tune/have a higher care factor for your sugars than in the old days.
ReplyDeleteI'm also a 20-something, T1-er who's trying to get pregnant! Found you through D-Blog Week. Can't wait to hear more about your experiences and hopefully share mine soon!
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What's normal? Normal = boring, and boy! Diabetes sure does make life "interesting" at times eh? :P Good to hear your getting to a feeling of acceptance. I can't imagine what it would be like to be diagnosed as an adult - I was only 5yrs when I was dx. Keep up the great work, and thanks for sharing :D
ReplyDeleteSometimes I think it would be easier to be diagnosed as a child because I would never have known anything different. The problem is that I know what it's like to eat whatever I want....however...I'm extremely grateful that I was able to experience that when most D's haven't. What was it like when you were 5? Does dx stand for Diabetic Ketoacidosis?? If so...that's how I was diagnosed as well.
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