My mom knows....

She know that we are TTC. I had to tell her. My crazy emotions forced me to do it....and I didn't want to.

I was freaking out this week about the ultrasound and everything that has been going on in my life (including the fact that I did NOT get the job I really wanted) and my mom started asking me all sorts of questions. In the process of telling her "why" they were doing certain tests- I blurted it out. "I didn't want to tell you this way, but Hubby and I have been trying to have a baby for almost 9 months."

She didn't really say much..nor did she react the way I thought she would- but to give her credit- I was an emotional wreck and I'm pretty sure she was trying to remain as calm as possible.

So I get an email today from her...."I haven't told anyone. It's your personal business and I know you don't want me to know everything." Of course......this is a cue that she's DYING to tell someone and wants me to give her more information.

I simply replied- "Please don't tell ANYONE (including my brother and SIL) and that we are trying to wrap our heads around the next steps and I would fill her in accordingly." This is going to be a long long road.....

I LOVE my mother...but I didn't want to tell her this way. I always pictured it being a HUGE surprise and her and my dad crying and clapping and being excited....I'm blaming it all on my emotions. I think that's fair.