Family Weekend!

Yes...that would be our little bitty tiny "Lentil" as we have dubbed it. LOL- it came from the fact that the baby is about the size of a Lentil seed....and it just stuck...kinda cute, but I keep telling the hubby we need to work on a new name.

The big reveal to our families is happening this weekend. I can hardly contain my excitement! We are headed to Hubby's parents on Saturday and my family on Sunday. Everyone is going to be surprised and I can't wait to see the look on their faces! Hopefully I'll be able to snap it with a video....hopefully!

At any rate...I've still been feeling pretty crappy. I threw up for the first time on Tuesday morning. I ended up taking a half day at work. I was in the shower...and blah....3 times. I dealt with low blood sugars most of the morning, but eventually ended up taking the nausea medicine. There's no great choice in overcoming this battle...it's either...throw up...or be constipated with a stomach ache. I know that's probably TMI, but I chose the lesser of two evils...I will deal with constipation and get rid of the nausea. Has anyone else had to deal with this? I know in the end it will all be worth it, but it would be extremely lovely to make it through at least 1 week without any sort of "ickiness!"

Our 2nd Ultrasound is tomorrow- super excited- I'm 8 weeks today and am finally excited to meet with the doctor more in depth. Hubby and I have some big decisions to make tonight on testing....it's really a non-issue because no matter what...this baby is coming into this world..it's just a matter of wanting to know ahead of time about complications or not. Will update sometime soon.

On a different note....I GOT MY NEW JOB!!! I'm so super excited. I will start on April 18th- I've been working on my letter of resignation at my old job all night. I'm a little nervous about turning it in, but this will be an extremely wonderful change for our growing little family. Minus the fact that I'm giving up 3 months of paid maternity leave at my current job...but the difference in salary will be worth it...I hope.

Wishing all of you out there much happiness this week....and on this day of Irish Celebration...much luck to those of you TTC!

A little scare gives us a blessing!

The past week has been slightly crazy! Nausea has kicked up a notch...beyond a notch. I'm having trouble eating almost anything. It's screwing with my blood sugar and I panic that I'm not eating healthy enough. Vegetables DO NOT sound good at all....I gag at the sight of them. I seem to be able to tolerate most fruit, so I'll stick with that. Apricots are the fruit of choice...which I never really liked a lot of before.

A couple nights ago, I woke up with pain in my lower right side. It was pulsing feeling. More uncomfortable than painful, but it really freaked me out. I got my book out and started reading...and of course...the dreaded ectopic pregnancy comes up. I naturally exaggerated every little feeling and called the doctor first thing yesterday morning. I am trying not to be "that pregnant woman" who constantly thinks something is wrong...but sadly I did. I even downplayed it to the nurse I spoke to. I told her...."you can tell me I'm crazy." She said she would talk to the doctor and get back with me. Naturally, I had meetings at work that morning and missed the phone call back. It was 12:33pm and I noticed I had a message....it was the doctor...they DEFINITELY wanted to see me- they scheduled an Ultrasound for 12:30- I was already 3 minutes late. At any rate....I called back and they seemed urgent to get me into the doctor...so they pushed the US back to 1:40.

I called the hubby really quickly and packed up my stuff at work and went to pick him up. This was going to be our first ultrasound after all- but I was nervous and hesitant to get excited. I could still feel that pingy feeling in my lower right side.

It took forever to finally get into the US room....I guess that's what happens when you have an "emergency" appointment. But...the US tech began and low and behold....there was our "little bambino" as she said. It was clearly in my uterus and looking good. He/she is soooo little! But we were instantly in love...and in tears...especially when you hear that fast beating little heart for the first time. We were overjoyed...and then I double checked to make sure there was just 1 baby in there....check on that!

At any rate...the little pingy feeling on my lower right side is a cyst on my ovary....same type as the one I had in January. Amazing how something so small can affect you so much. So, I was not making up the feeling and she assured me that it would most likely go away by the 2nd trimester.

Hubby and I walked out with 3 tiny pictures of our little person....relieved and overcome with joy. I would like to thank my cyst for allowing me to get an ultrasound about 1 1/2 weeks early. I can't wait to hear that little heartbeat again on the 18th- what a beautiful sound.

6 weeks!

Tomorrow...I will be officially 6 weeks! It already seems like time is flying by...but at the same time....keeping this a secret makes time seem really slow...

I'm counting down the days until we can tell our parents....that should be fun!

I had my first OB appointment today- things went well. I had some nightmares last night about "things going wrong" and I freaked out this morning before my appointment when I woke up. Hubby decided to go with me- so that made me feel really good. Since they were just doing blood work and other things...he originally was not going to go- but I'm glad he did. We met with the nurse- she was FANTASTIC! I loved her and she answered all my questions and calmed me about my fears. We did actually run into my doctor while I was there and she met Hubby for the first time. I think he liked her- so that's a plus. I'm officially due on October 27, 2011 and the nurse told me that they most likely would NOT let me go past October 29th because of the Diabetes- but we'll see how that goes.

In addition to my day, I had another appointment with the Endocrinologist this afternoon. I really needed to make adjustments since I'm experiencing more low blood sugars than normal. She was extremely happy to hear my news and she spent quite a bit of time with me this afternoon looking over numbers and making changes. I feel like I have a good plan and am ready for the next steps of moving forward healthily in this pregnancy. A1c was 6.5- up from 6.3- but I'm happy with that number and confident that I can bring it down even more over the next couple months. Especially since I'm testing on average about 9-10 times a day.

Other than that- I've been experience extreme taste aversions and nausea - I haven't been able to eat breakfast the past two mornings...and this sounds really funny...but the only thing I want to eat is a sausage, egg, and cheese biscuit. Really...not the BEST choice for healthy eating...but at least I can stomach it. After talking to the nurse this morning, I'm going to try eating some crackers before getting out of bed to see if that helps. I haven't officially thrown up yet, but I was REALLY CLOSE this morning- but the Hubby was there to rub my back and I thought that was sweet.

I was off work today because of my many appointments, but feeling extremely tired- I did take a 2 hour nap- so I'm awake and feeling pretty good! Thank you all again for your emails and support- I'm happy and excited to share my journey with you all!

Feeling blessed...

First of all- thank you ALL so much for your kind words and thoughts. It has been fabulous to use this blog as an outlet. I may be screaming in my own head constantly if I didn't have anyone to share my exciting news with. I'm just really praying that things continue to go well over the next 35 weeks.

The Hubby has been working extremely LONG hours over the past month-making it difficult to get really excited yet....even though we are at every moment we are together. I've barely seen him...which is why it is another miracle I am pregnant! I guess it's all about quality..not quantity! LOL!

At any rate....I thought I felt bad last week...but oh no....I'm feeling extremely exhausted as of this morning. I can't remember the last time I felt tired throughout an entire day. I felt bad at work this morning as I yawned in mid conversation. I know it was not dehydration because I'm drinking water like it's my job. I've invested in limes and cucumbers to had a little flava to my new drink of choice...aqua!

Beyond the tiredness, I have lots of cramping (kinda like a period). It usually comes in the evening and again in the morning. It's not painful, just constant...a gentle reminder that things are hopefully going well. I've only had nausea once...this morning...and it only lasted for a couple of minutes. I hope that's what it stops at...not just the beginning of what may be ahead...although I'll take every single pain and twinge for this little person inside of me.

I'm anxious about my doctor's appointment, it's a week away still. That doesn't seem normal, but I've been reading that it is...even PWD. My blood sugar has been pretty stable. I've run into a few highs and I promptly correct them- usually from eating something at a restaurant. I've been battling lows more than normal. I had a 42 this morning and some juice at work quickly took care of that. I haven't been that low in a long time, but it gave me a wake up call to always be prepared. This is just another reason that I'm anxious to see the doctor.

My boobs hurt like crazy...to the point that I'm really uncomfortable laying on my stomach or a tight hug...this just started within the past 2 days...hope this doesn't get worse.

In addition, I'm in a wedding at the end of August (I'll be 7 mo. prego) and in the process of bridesmaid dress shopping with a bunch of friends...whom I'm not ready to tell. I have to make a plan to go order a dress by myself...and then talk to the shop about ordering a dress 10x bigger...this should be an adventure...and a miracle if it fits correctly. Anyone have experience with this?

I will continue posting my journey as I move forward on this adventure. I found myself choked up this evening as I read another blogger's post about the loss of a baby at 19weeks 4days. I can't imagine...a gentle reminder for continued prayer for good health and a safe journey. I'm sure I'll share it all with you.

A positive sign ahead....

LITERALLY!!!!



I feel unbelievably blessed and fortunate to finally be at this place. Hubby and I could not be any happier. I think the stress of last month allowed us to relax a little bit and make our little miracle happen.

As for now....I'm holding my breath for everything to go well during the next 8 months and especially during the next 3. If all goes as said...I'm due October 27th- which is the date I was due when my parents were expecting me...how funny is that. I may get a little baby for my birthday :)

I'm almost 5 weeks and am going to the doctor next week. My blood sugars for the most part have been really fantastic and I'm hoping to stay on that road....

I waited 10 months for this little miracle...so for those of you who are TTC- I'm sending baby dust your way along with a flood of prayers!

Good news from the doc...

After nearly a week with no phone call about my test results, I finally caved and called. Somehow, I had been forgotten about. Surprise surprise! Luckily the nurse I spoke to was extremely nice and concerned that I had not heard from the doctor. She apologized over and over and promised a phone call by the end of the day.

My doctor got back to me and reassured me that the cyst on my ovary was extremely normal- it was a follicular cyst and she said that this was actually extremely good news that things are working correctly down there. All my blood work came back normal and she canceled my ultrasound in three weeks. I'm just going in for a regular appointment and we'll go from there. She did tell me that I indeed have a small Fibroid tumor on the very back of my uterus and she reassured me this was no problem for conceiving.

I'm a little annoyed that the nurse practitioner I saw gave me incorrect information. She really made it seem like the cyst was not normal and even told me so. My doctor assured me that the cyst was very normal and probably was NOT the cause of the annoying pain in my abdomen. She also reassured me that there was only 1 Fibroid tumor...and not 2 as the NP originally stated. Just what I need- someone to blow things out of proportion more than I already do!

So...I'm staying positive and praying and hoping that this will be the month. I keep dreaming about the positive sign on a pregnancy test but have a huge fear that I will never see it. But again- remaining optimistic and hoping to relax a bit....I wish it was easier.


For now...I'm remaining entertained at home by watching "The Unpoppables"- has anyone seen this show...crazy stuff with balloons- fascinating!

My mom knows....

She know that we are TTC. I had to tell her. My crazy emotions forced me to do it....and I didn't want to.

I was freaking out this week about the ultrasound and everything that has been going on in my life (including the fact that I did NOT get the job I really wanted) and my mom started asking me all sorts of questions. In the process of telling her "why" they were doing certain tests- I blurted it out. "I didn't want to tell you this way, but Hubby and I have been trying to have a baby for almost 9 months."

She didn't really say much..nor did she react the way I thought she would- but to give her credit- I was an emotional wreck and I'm pretty sure she was trying to remain as calm as possible.

So I get an email today from her...."I haven't told anyone. It's your personal business and I know you don't want me to know everything." Of course......this is a cue that she's DYING to tell someone and wants me to give her more information.

I simply replied- "Please don't tell ANYONE (including my brother and SIL) and that we are trying to wrap our heads around the next steps and I would fill her in accordingly." This is going to be a long long road.....

I LOVE my mother...but I didn't want to tell her this way. I always pictured it being a HUGE surprise and her and my dad crying and clapping and being excited....I'm blaming it all on my emotions. I think that's fair.

Progress?

I had my GYN appointment today.....thank GOD the Hubby attended with me. I was so eternally grateful for his support! His first time at the GYNO and he was looking around for other men...and sighed a breathe of relief when he saw one!

I guess we're making progress- at least I got some answers today. The doc did an internal exam- I have a tilted uterus. She went ahead and did preliminary blood work to "rule out" anything major preventing pregnancy- including thyroid, etc. That made me really happy- thanks to "anonymous" from a few posts ago- I feel better already- why not rule out things?

I waited over an hour for my ultrasound. I knew something was wrong from the minute the tech sat down. She said- "have you ever been told that you have fibroids?" I simply replied "no...what are fibroids." She says to me- "they are tiny tumors, they are usually benign and you have 2 of them." Thanks Ultrasound Tech- she had no further info to give me...

She turned her little computer screen away from me and started typing- clearly not wanting me to see. We were supposed to leave immediately after the ultrasound because we had been there for over 3 hours...and she says "please wait here- I need to get the doctor."

Doctor comes in- I do indeed have 2 Fibroids- apparently something not to worry about...but something to monitor. They were benign. In addition- the aching pain on the right side of my abdomen is IN FACT a cyst. Thanks for hating me body!

So...the weird period I had last week- should NOT be counted as a period. She thinks it was bleeding caused by the cyst on my ovary. She thinks I actually ovulated last week...and not the week before as I thought...and I should get my period in 7-10 days. She said there is a small chance that I could still be pregnant...but would be too early to tell. Given my sex life over the past week...hardly possible :)

I feel better now that I have a few answers. She told me that there is absolutely NOTHING that I should be worried about regarding my fertility as of now. Everything found today should not have a direct effect- but I'm holding my breath until all the tests come back. Should know more information by Friday.

I have a follow up ultra sound towards the end of February already scheduled- at least we can keep the discussion going.

Can you be my "web MD?"

Symptoms: (for some of you, this may be tmi)

Period 5 days early (after 6 months of normal 28 day cycles)= 23 days
Period consisting of BROWN blood (very light)- followed by dark black and heavy for about 12 hours...followed by more BROWN blood for about a half day. My "period" ended in about 2 1/2 days instead of the normal 5.

Lower RIGHT abdominal pains (sharp and pulsing....but not extremely painful)- constant and very clearly on the right- we're on day 3 of this.

Lower RIGHT back pain- lasted about 1 day

Negative pregnancy test- after drinking lots of hot tea and in the evening (too diluted?)


Off to the doctor on Wednesday.....the nurse mentioned the word "cyst" which is really freaking me out...anyone had a cyst with the above symptoms???

Feeling frustrated...

I can't believe it's been almost 3 months since my last post. The holidays were crazy and I think I just needed some time to prioritize my life and become mentally re-balanced...if that's even possible.

I feeling a bit frustrated....actually...a lot frustrated- so I decided to channel my energy here- simply so I can breathe and relax...and perhaps get some advice.

Hubby and I are headed into our 8th month of TTC. I never dreamed it would take this long and it seems that some of my biggest fears are coming true. But then I feel selfish, because I personally know many friends and family members who have waited much longer than 8 months and some of them for more than 3 years. So, I feel extremely conflicted in how I'm supposed to feel and who I can share those feelings with.

I've technically been off birth control for almost a year now....and for several of those months afterwards, we were not TRYING to get pregnant but most of the time we were not preventing either. We seriously started trying in July....and well...here we are now.

I have a GYN appointment next month and I'm going to ask her what I should do....I can hear her words now..."just keep trying." Why are those words so hard to hear....it wouldn't be as bad if the Hubby was not just as disappointed as I am.

I'm sure my anxiety surrounding TTC is contributing to complications...but any advice on how to turn it off? I would love to "not think about it"- but that seems nearly impossible. My period is all out of whack- this month...it came 5 days early....this has NEVER happened to me before which really only gave me a 22 day cycle- does that not scream that something is wrong?

Should I become even more neurotic and chart my BBT and measure mucus and purchase more of those stupid ovulation sticks? Those of you who have been through this before....what's your advice?

On another note, SIL is FINALLY pregnant! I'm so super excited for them after a 2 year battle with infertility...I can't believe I'm going to be an Aunt this July! I wanna be on that boat too!

On the Diabetes front, things have been going pretty well. I got a NEW PUMP! Animas Ping- it's working out so far- loving the remote option- but I do miss the simplicity of the Medtronic screens and buttons. Oh well- the insurance things is another battle that has no end in sight....I won't talk about that today...

On the Job front, I had a 3rd interview yesterday. Things at my current place of employment are almost unbearable, so I applied somewhere else and I know it's between me and another person. I think the 3rd interview went well....hope to hear something on Monday. Please pray for me....I really need this job!

I've been going to church every Sunday since the new year....I need to have God on my side if things are going to get tricky. However, I'm wondering if asking for a new job and asking for a baby at the same time is too much to ask?

Is it a Fake Out?

Life can be cruel sometimes...and I'm wondering if God is Faking me out.....

My period was supposed to start yesterday- since the beginning of my period as a 12 year old- my period has ALWAYS been normal and regular (with the exception of Pre-Diabetes diagnosis).

Every 26 days...my period is like clock work....however....yesterday...it did NOT come at all. Part of me wanted to be excited...so I took a test...a big fat NEGATIVE. Disappointment....disappointment...disappointment....

Last night I went to bed with cramps- woke up with cramps in the middle of the night...not feeling so great. This morning...I felt fine...but I still have no signs of normal period..nor have I had any cramps today....

This is such a mean trick if my period is going to come...what would you do...take another test??? Wait it out a few days??


Part of me is nervous to take another test for fear of another BIG FAT NEGATIVE!

Maybe I'll get what I wanted for my birthday after all....maybe???

I believe in Miracles

I've been counting my blessings over the past few days and thanking GOD for everything I have in my life.

My cousin was in a very serious car accident on Friday morning. It was one of those phone calls that you dread ever getting again. The unknown, the "what do I do", the unimaginable thoughts that run through your head.

All I heard was....ejected from car, bleeding on the brain, unconscious....

My cousin is 27 years old...and she was NOT wearing her seat belt....and it SAVED her life.

Friday morning, she was pulling out onto a 4 lane highway from the street she lives on. She didn't see the car and pulled out into the intersection and was T-boned by an oncoming car. My cousin was thrown through the passenger window of her car and onto the grass on the side of the road. A young woman who was 2 cars behind her came to her side and prayed with her. The first paramedic on the scene looked at the woman praying and said "you are wasting your time." Those words give me chills all over my body...how could anyone be wasting their time?

She was rushed to the hospital where they immediately began working on her. Within the day, she was in stable condition with the following injuries....

Concussion
Lacerated Spleen
Cracked Pelvis
Broken Tailbone
4 Fractured bones around her eye socket
Lots of cuts from glass and bruises

Praise GOD that she is alive.....he was truly watching over her.

I was able to go to the hospital yesterday and she her. She was awake and moving her arms around. She recognized me, Hubby, and my parents. She has short term memory loss and has absolutely no clue what has happened, nor how lucky she was.

My uncle went and looked at her car...which is unrecognizable- and the scary part is...if she had her seat belt on, she would have been instantly killed...it's amazing to me how that happens sometimes.

She has an extremely long recovery ahead and she is in an extreme amount of pain, but I am so eternally grateful that she will make it through this.

Please pray for her and my family, and also pray for the 61 year old woman that was in the other car, also stable but with serious injuries.

Life is short and you never know what is going to happen. I'm so thankful for my life and everything I have and I hope everyone will be grateful for miracles that can happen when you need them most.

*Please wear your seat belt despite what I've stated here. 90% of the time, a seat belt will SAVE your life and you definitely want those odds on your side.

Good news on insurance...WTF?

It finally happened.....I finally appreciate my insurance while living with Diabetes! Finally!!

My pump is cracking....and it's out of warranty..which means one thing...I HAVE to have a new one.

The problem...it was originally going to cost me about $3500 AFTER insurance- which was really scary given that I absolutely need the thing. i was pissed that I may possibly have to put off redoing our bathroom or getting a new (used) car for a stupid insulin pump...what a lame way to spend the money (sorta)!

BUT....our insurance at my place of employment is getting a new plan starting on Nov. 1st...which means.....Insurance covers my pump at 100% after I meet my deductible...which I'm close to meeting this year! So...after Nov. 1st....I can start the process.

I believe I'm going to go with an Animas Ping and switch from my current Medtronic Paradigm 522. I've heard really good things about the Ping and I'm going to an information session next week about it- so any other opinions??? Anyone have the Revel and love it? Omnipod? What do you all like about the Ping that I can't pass up?

In addition though, medtronic is FREAKING out that I'm not going to stick with them. I simply mentioned it to a Rep today and I had about 3 phone calls asking me questions about why Medtronic was better and that Animas was not a good choice. They threatened to call my doctors to talk about my switching and I politely told them- I would appreciate they do not discuss this with my doctors until after I meet with them next week.

I am also trying to return my CGM- their sucky 30 day return policy really sucks given the fact that my original rep from Medtronic told me it was 90 days....wish me luck with that....she tried to tell me that I was doing everything wrong- I didn't really appreciate that.

Looking forward to a fresh start with a new gadget!

New Pump?

It's been a while since I've written. My busy life has caught up with me and I'm starting to find a new normal. Work has been crazy busy and we FINALLY hired another full time person- so I may just get my life back starting on Thursday.

Things on the baby front...well....cautiously slow.....we are attempting our 4th month of trying to conceive...and I'll leave it at that.

On the pump front, I looked down the other day and I noticed that my Insulin pump was cracked. It is cracked and chipping off right where you twist in the battery. I've already lost a little piece of the plastic and it won't be long before more of it cracks and falls off too- which leaves me to pump shopping.

I have not decided yet if I'm going to stay with Medtronic or try the Ping or OmniPod. Any thoughts from all you people out there who switched from a medtronic? Of course my pump is out of warranty- but what other option do I have? It's going to cost me nearly $3000 to get a new one- that's AFTER insurance covers it. Unfortunately, my insurance has a Medical device cap of $2500- so I have to pay the remainder regardless. As stated previously- I'm looking into other options but am slightly terrified to make a new change.

I'm going to the endocrinologist next week, so I've been wearing the sensor for the last week and will continue to do so through next week. It's still not working properly and I know I'm calibrating correctly. Hopefully the endo will be able to help me sort out the damn little thing!! It is one thing that is holding me back to sticking with Medtronic- I already have the sensor and will most likely want to wear it through a pregnancy....but I'm also not going to let that be the only thing since I hate it already.

On another note, my brother and SIL had their second attempt at IUI- we'll find out this week if it worked...have your prayers ready for them- it's SIL's birthday this week and it would be a welcome birthday wish come true!

Although I haven't written- I'm still reading all your posts out there! Glad to see everyone is doing well and happy :)

Time to relax

I actually said the word....relax! Try it...seriously...you'll feel better..say.....RELAX!

That is what I'm doing for the next month. After traveling again this past weekend, we have no further travel plans. If anyone wants to see us...they have to come to us. That's a reasonable request I think...especially after I've seriously traveled at least 2 hours for the past 8 weekends! It's time for a break...and I'm loving it!

I've been extremely overwhelmed by the support I've received from my friends and family. My little cousin and I are walking together in the JDRF walk in a couple weeks. I'm super excited and I think it's mainly because I'm doing it for him. He is going to come and walk with us and my mom and dad as well as Hubby's mom and dad are going to come walk with us as well. I didn't even asked, they just said they would be there. I've managed to raise over $700 in approximately a week by simply sending out a personal email to friends and family. It's amazing the emails and the immediate support I've received...now granted...it's probably because of my cousin's cute little face on the front of the page in the email...but it's nice to see such an active response.

It's made me want to get a job in fundraising for a cause I care about. Remember how I said that I was going to stop looking for a job for at least a year....well....I lied.....the hunt began again....I can't help but dream that something good will happen!

Meet my cousin Dylan!

This is Dylan! Dylan is 6 years old and just started 1st grade!! He is my cousin's son...making him my 2nd cousin. Dylan is a fun loving and extremely smart little dude. Every time I see him, he graces me with a hug and holds my hand.

Dylan is a Type 1 Diabetic...diagnosed at the age of 3...and this year...I'm walking in JDRF for him!

I asked him to name our team this year...he chose "Dylan's Chargers"- so I signed up as the Team Captain and am now leading the way to a fundraising goal of $500.

I have a few issues with JDRF as some of us in blog world have discussed over the past week. But Dylan is the reason I continue to support JDRF despite my own woes with the organization. I love being able to share this unique bond with him....even though it is T1- it is a bond...and it's something I cannot explain...we just connect when we are with each other.

So just to make it known...I'm walking to support my little charger Dylan this year for JDRF! Charge on!

Pray for SIL and random thoughts!

I've been a little off on the blogging front lately...and I need to get back into it- lots of traveling over the past 7 weeks and we're finally settling down and getting back to normal.

Last Sunday, my brother and my SIL had an IUI procedure. I'm praying extremely hard that things work out for them, even though there is only a 7-10% chance of conception actually happening. I believe tomorrow is the day that she'll actually find out, but I'm not calling or asking. I figure if there is good news, I'll hear about it. If there is bad news, I'll know about it. I did have an amazingly real dream the other night that she had a positive pregnancy test- so I'm taking that as a sign that things are going well. So, please keep them in your thoughts and prayers...I would absolutely love to be an aunt!

I've been feeling crappy on and off for the last couple days. Part of it was my period, but last night, I broke out in a cold sweat, felt nauseous and weak...but it went away and I'm better again. Blood sugars have been relatively stable and normal. I feel that since I've started volunteering at Children's Hospital, I've been exposed to more sickness than normal..perhaps I'm catching a few things?

I've been reading other community bloggers posts lately regarding the support or lack of support for adults with T1. This really got me thinking about how far I've come in the past 5 years. Honestly, most of my support and a lot of education that I've received has come from all of you out here in the blogging world. Sure, I walk with JDRF every Fall, but mainly in support of my 6 year old cousin with T1- not because of me. It is very much a kid focused event, which I'm fine with, but what about a 5k sponsored event from JDRF for adults living with T1? Maybe I'll start one.....now to find a contact! I would love to find a 5k race that is in support of myself - but it seems as though "running" or "races" are out for those with T1- mainly because most people think we can't handle it. That's my goal for this coming year- run a race and tackle any lows that may come along with it. But I want to run for myself- it's hard to find.

My husband ate most of the candy!

Thanks to Scully for the delicious candy Rockets!! How sweet of her to send me these delicious treats!! Thank you sooo much, now I just have to stop the Hubby from eating them all! He loves them because they are "larger than a Smartie and therefore better." My Hubby loves anything from Canada as well and would do anything to become a duel citizen of the country- we visit frequently! It was a very UNnecessary gift but a wonderful surprise!!
Things have been a little hectic lately- lots of traveling and another trip with my mom to NYC as I posted in my last post. The Hubby is working long hours again so I'm adjusting again to meals at home by myself and renting movies. I would really like to motivate myself again to start the workout trend- I was doing so good and then I had that horrible cold. I really just need to get back on the train and keep chugging away.

I've been putting off inserting another sensor into my thigh. I'm not sure why I'm so hesitant, but I am. I have some horrible scars (dot size) on my thighs from the things and they look like massive bug bites. It really bothers me for some reason, but it is a better alternative than the stomach......I really just need to do it.

Apparently- I just need to do A LOT of things- like stop eating the junk that I've been eating lately. It's been horrible on the blood sugar, but lunch and dessert was provided at work today and I can't ever seem to stop myself from over indulging. I go on these binges every once in a while where my eyes are much more powerful than my brain....I need to STOP that too! UGH!

NYC...take 2

I'm back from the Big Apple again!!

My mom and I drove the exhausting 9 hours to the big city for another wedding! I'm really proud of myself for actually driving into the CITY and parking the car. We stayed at this amazingly stellar hotel called The Marcel at Gramercy...it was near Gramercy Park...extremely cute part of the city. We ate at Coppola's for lunch and it was amazing! We were then able to meet up with some old friends that we hadn't seen in a while. Everyone was in from out of town for the wedding and we were all staying at the same hotel! It was a really good time!

The wedding was at the Manhatten Penthouse...directly next door to Parson's School of Design. I'm a huge Project Runway fan, so this got me super excited! The wedding was absolutely fabulous...different, but extremely beautiful and fun. The bride wore a fabulous short feathered dress and the groom and his best man wore Converse tennis shoes with their tuxes. They danced their first dance to the Jackson 5's "ABC...easy as 1-2-3!" So adorable and cute. We danced all night long!

Saturday morning, my mom and I woke up, had a fab breakfast and headed down to the World Trade Center Memorial visitor center. The last time my mom and I were in NYC was 3 weeks before September 11th...so this is something she wanted to do...we both cried almost the entire way through, but it was beautifully done and I'm excited to see the official memorial once it's built. To wrap up the trip, I took my mom to Max Brenner's and we had fondue (great for the blood sugar!) but it was delicious and we had a great time.

We drove the entire trip home that afternoon and evening. It was very long but I got to see the Hubby that night and sleep in my own bed. I vegged around almost all day yesterday- we did got on a little hike, but the tiredness set in and we ended up renting a movie and in bed before 10pm.

Today for this glorious Labor Day, I had to work. However, I'm all moved in to my new office and they've started painting it the color I want- a lovely calming lavender! It's going to be a great start to a new "job" so to say, but I'm excited for a new chapter and what the next couple months will bring.

No news on the baby front :(

End of Summer sickness...

I knew that I was too lucky going through this entire Summer feeling fantastic. It was my turn I guess...

It started on Thursday at work...I left early, my blood sugar was up and down and up and down again. Then, I ran out of insulin at work and had a sort of panic (I knew I should have changed it that morning, but the hussle and bustle of the morning made me forget)- I was running pretty high, over 250 and not feeling so great. So I cleared out my schedule and headed home to refill and de-stress. I even went to the gym- I've been doing really well with that lately and I can see the results in my numbers.

Friday, I was off during the day, but I woke up with a mini-sore throat...the beginnings of a horrible cold. I mentally prepared myself to "handle the cold" so that I could make it through my fun filled weekend that I had planned. Friday night rolled around and I was blowing my nose a thousand times........

Saturday, woke up miserable....but we had a bunch of stuff to do- I slept for about an hour and then we headed on the short 2 hour drive South for yet..you guessed it...ANOTHER wedding. I made it through the wedding with stacks of tissues and bar napkins....but the cold was in full force.

We stayed with my SIL and my brother on Saturday night- a good time...excpet they have a dog...and I'm EXTREMELY allergic. She sent the dog to her parents for the weekend because of me, but it doesn't help. I woke up Sunday morning with watery eyes and they were nearly swollen shut. So...I took allergy meds AND the cold medicine and attempted to make it through the day without snotting over everything.

We celebrated my mom and my brother's birthday, I washed my hands fifty million times as I helped prepare food and get things together for our little cookout. My SIL filled me in a little about her infertility news- she's having an IUI this coming weekend and shared a little with me (that's another post)- but things are looking up.

We left my brother's house and drove home last night...I was still miserable...slept almost the entire way...woke up this morning and still feeling worse...I called into work. I don't want to feel gross all day, snotting and coughing all around everybody. My boss was understanding, so here I am...stuck at home...with an extremely sore nose and a horrible hacking cough.

The other bad news....Hubby woke up this morning with a sore throat....(this is where the music comes in!)